Unafraid

Recently I've been thinking a lot about my life- what I've been through, what I enjoy doing most, and what I want. I'm turning 17 soon, and I realised, how one reacts towards certain things actually affects how decisions are made. Most of the time in a way that's too subtle that it seems like a natural instinct. As we grow, we learn to look at things from a slightly different perspective and in so doing, we mature. Every new experience leads to a new discovery, and becomes a testimony of our own. By scripting down every single thought and reflection, we're actually sharing. Opinions may differ, but at some point in our lives, we would have to agree that experiences are the best teachers of life. There're so many decisions to make, so many paths to choose from, so many lessons of life I have and have not learnt. I may have to struggle to come to terms with the ugly, harsh facts of life that I'll face and right now I have absolutely no idea what is in store for me. Would I remain undaunted and unfazed by people who make my life miserable? Would I stay strong and unfaltering should things get too tough? Would I be able to overcome all odds, and emerge as someone closer to God? I do not know, but thank God I have Him, "for His compassions never fail" (Lamentations 3:22). No matter where I go, I would know for sure, I can always rely on Him, for I know He loves me, and this is a reason good enough for me to learn to live up to His expectations, to be someone worthy of His love. I'm really glad, God's always here for me. With His safe reassurance, I don't think there's anything to be afraid of .^^

Blues

Like can you believe it it's almost 3 in the morning results are in less than 12 hours away.

You're someone who gets angry at the most insignificant things in the world and remains indifferent when the rest of the people around you are getting all frustrated and annoyed. When you had Art to manage your mood became unpredictable and we had to buy you your favourite food to cheer you up. For a few weeks you loved orange peels, for the next few you loved seaweed. Then there were the chillifish, chawanmushi, otah and dewberry cookies. You would buy the fiftycents laksa and complain how stingy the uncle is, you would talk about FiftyCent to borrow fifty cents from us, and you would buy the rice from Western's then PK with Est and Chels to see who's got the most slippery buy. You would say a joke out of the blue then I would look at you blankly and laugh sarcastically after a few seconds. You would keep us updated about the latest sales going on and spend a bomb on onlineshopping. I would turn faint whenever I see your wordy emails about orders and complicated blogshops but kudos to you bcus you always seem to manage it all easily. You would tease me occasionally about BL and I would be very nice and play along with you, and you would get all excited at the mention of gays and hairy men. You're as fickle as the rain, but somehow I always knew what decision you would make ultimately. You're one of th weirdest friends I have, but I love you like that. We have been classmates for four years, and I hope we can still always chat about random stuff........I know you're not someone good at words and stuff like 'I love you', 'I miss you' are definitely not your style but it's alright because you're genuine like that. I love you! Don't worry about tmrw already!!

Wait.

Life is short, really. Though date of results day isn't confirmed, I have a feeling it's coming in less than ten days, like I can totally count them off my fingers. Waiting, aniticpating. Frantic, pounding heart. Skin cool like marble. Blood pumping through my head. It's like a toss of a coin, either you get this, or you don't. Right now, I'm just hoping against hope results day would get delayed (as much as possible). It's not that I'm afraid of how I'd do, but my heart just isn't ready for what would happen next. Would life take on a turn? Honestly when I look at this whole thing I feel a little silly, because I know a few years down the road when I look back this is gonna look really insignificant, like how psle is to us right now......... but why does this put me on tenterhooks if it doesn't matter at all........ The prospect of it all just makes me cringe so much..... But thanks, I leave it to God.

Click six

I love squeezy shots like this. Hi lovelies, things're gonna be different this year, but I hope what we have will remain close to our hearts, and when time passes by, what actually keeps us together are memories like this. Cookies, movies, brownies, camwhoring......... This is really a bunch whom I think can really do stupid things together and not bother how others would think. Maybe because when we're together we're all just simple, so we hardly have any conflicts and this is something I really love about us because among friends in cliques it's inevitable not to have conflicts but scratch that, we have proven it wrong. I hope as time goes down the road, we would still be able to have fun like this.........I love you guys all five of you (: